It shouldn't shock me that he's been in love before. And it doesn't.
I just know (maybe not on the same level that he does), what it's like to have your heart tell you one thing, and the Lord to tell you something else. And I know it took me over a year to get over that, and I wasn't anywhere close to being married. At least I don't think. So knowing that something as monumental as that happened less than six months ago...just makes me wonder I guess.
I'm not worried, and I'm not freaking out. I'm just processing all of that through my brain.
Normally, in this sort of situation, I'd be scared. I'm terrified of being vulnerable. But I'm not scared. I trust him. That's big. And it feels so good to say.